I love when I read the Word and something jumps out at me
that I can struggle with and talk to Daddy about. This morning it was a piece
of scripture from the Gospels: John 12
The chapter opens with Mary, loving on Jesus and pouring out
her expensive perfume. After she pours it out on Jesus’ feet, Judas Iscariot
says, “Why was this perfume not sold for 300 denarii [a year’s wages for an
ordinary workman] and that [money] given to the poor (the destitute)? Now he did not say this because he cared for the
poor but because he was a thief; and having the bag (the money box, the purse
of the Twelve) he took for himself what was put into it [pilfering the
collections]” John 12:5-6 AMP
Wait…I’d missed this the first hundred times. Judas was not
only Jesus’ betrayer, but a thief besides? The Treasurer of the group was a
thief?
But he literally WALKED with Jesus. He heard the Words of
God directly from the mouth of Jesus…as in he could TOUCH Him physically, every
day. How does that happen?
We are a true mess without the Lord. Without Him we are
nothing. But I realize that even as Christians, we are still not worthy. We
still don’t deserve Him. We still are nothing compared to a Holy God. We can do
nothing right without Him. It’s almost like, “wait, wasn’t Lazarus a literal
FOLLOWER of Christ?” Because when you accept Christ and follow Him, that’s when
you behave as you should all the time, that’s when you do everything right,
right?
We will never know what it means for a truly Holy God to
love a people who know what to do and still do the opposite (we hear you Paul). Who know what sin is and the damage it causes
and still partake of it. As a believer, I have a new-found awe and appreciation
for the Lord that loves me. Even as I follow Him, I am a mess and He loves me
still.
Embodied in this flesh that is constantly rising up and
demanding to have it’s way and our eventual submissions to it...just to shut it
up. This wretched flesh that insists on being satisfied. Our Lord loves us even
when He knows our horrible thoughts and our sinful actions. His faithfulness
and love are not conditional. No, I will never know how much it cost to see my
sin on the cross, and I will also never understand what it means for Love to
love me. Everyday…an "impossible" feat to love such a sinful people and yet, He neither falters nor
hesitates to do so.
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